Saturday, March 07, 2009
Off day again..nothing to do so came to update blog...nothing special this week...everyday work work work..haha..only tue went to visit baby alicia and pass her angbao cause LIFEN put me aeroplane again..haha..alicia got a new hair cut and is very cute...she look chubby and seem to have getting bigger in size..this is so good...haha...after that everyday is work until today...life seem so constant..nothing special about and it bore me alot...but no choice this is life...
yesterday night after work went to meet friend at bishan and then went for supper...i didnt know i choose the wrong place to supper until when i reach there and start eating...if i knew thing were like this i wont go there....hais....same old place, same old seat, same old food, but the person i am with is differentnot the same...the feeling is totally different...it remind of that night...the night when i was happy and like it alot even though i was very rush...then suddenly i felt a sharp pain but i continue my supper...went home after that and i walked the same route back...thinking of the night again my heart sank....slowly i walk back home...take a bath i think of alot...deep down my heart i know i understand alot just that i refuse to accept it...but now i know i have to accept it even slowly as i scare it might be a burden to others and somehow it is affecting my life...no matter how not happy i have to accept the facts that things had change and is not usual anymore...there is nothing more i can do about it...a clap need 2 hands...single hand cant do much...maybe all along it was a mistake , a misunderstanding..i dont know...but i am glad that it happened although felt sad that it never continue...i know there are things in this world are not meant to and not by force or what...so i can only accept it and wish for the best to me and others...i can only hope that things arent that bad yet...all i need is just some time to settle my thought and accepting it...Hope that the rest of the day will be Happy to me and all my close one....
世间万物都在变, 尤其是人...我忽然发现身边的事物尤其是人变的好陌生...不知道是因为自己变了, 还是身边的事物变了...想了很久也想不明白, 到最后也找不到答案...但放弃又不是我的作风, 问人我想结果也是一样...但这问题一直在我脑海里打转, 让我很困扰...但同时又找不到答案, 我真的不知道该怎么办才好...我想要得到答案应该是很难的吧...
我曾经找到了那种感觉, 但因为某些事情我失去了...我好后悔...我以为我不会在找到那种感觉, 但我错了...我又找到了那种感觉, 但我几乎我又要失去了...我不知道原因是什么但我好恨我自己, 恨我自己懦弱, 恨我自己的无知, 恨我自己的胆小, 恨我自己的无能...我好讨厌这种感觉.........我的心真的好痛, 好痛...除了怪我自己我真的不知该怎么样才好.......感叹............
I just need some time to settle down...
and it's the end....
到此为止...
