Self-Hypnotize...自我催眠

Monday, March 02, 2009

finally have time to update...today i off so good finally can rest le..have been working for the pass week..everyday morning till late night..even my boss cannot stand it so today half day while i off..haha...it is tired working but able to work with my brothers it was fun too...after working i realise that i was not that fit anymore...very easily tired and not so strong to carry alot of thing like last time..think i need to train more fit...haha...the following week i will be busy working too until i got my result i going to send resume again to find job...hope i can find a good one...haha..

last sat i off too and afternoon went to buy baby anklet as guowen baby alicia full month...after buying walk around yishun then head to guowen house...gave alicia the anklet then chat around with others...after everyone reached we pack a big red packet for alicia..haha...guowen and colyn keep refusing but i stuff it into the anklet bag..haha...can see that they both are paiseh and apprecited it alot...haha...so happy to see alicia again...for now she is the only person who can make me happy and make my day better just by seeing her smile...haha..but she is sleeping the whole night until when we were about to go off she wake up and i carry her around..she is still so small size but very healthy...carrying her is so fun and nice...she she smile while i carry her..her smile really touches my heart..really love baby alicia alot...really wish her all the goods and healthy...haha...
after visiting her we went to watch movie "SLUMDOG MILLIONAIRE "...at first i tot it was a boring movie but after watching it i find it rather nice...the story plot is nice and good...it reflect alot on indian life and how evil a human can be just for money...it also show how brother are willing to sacrifice...i like the show quite alot and it make me think alot after that...it make it more believe that money is evil and it can make a human ugly...it make me know that how fortunate i am living alive and having a good life... it make me known to complain alot about life cause mine isnt the worst yet...i still have my family and brothers always there for me....haha...although the show ending is not really nice but consider good already...

it make me start to think about my life again and again...what i really want and how should i move...i seem to play too much in the past and i felt tired already...think it is really time for me to settle down and do something...must find a job that is good and have good prospect so that i can earn alot to support my family and my future family...i wont let my family suffer and i want them to be happy always...haha..
seeing guowen small family i feel so envy...it make me wanted wish to find someone who can be by my side all the time giving me advice and always support me...let me know that there is someone waiting for me at home, i will strive more just not to let her alone and suffer...someone who i really love and really love me...cause having someone to be by your side is really a blessing and knowing someone is waiting for you is a motivation for you to move further in life...having someone to take care of you is a big blessing too...but i know it is very hard to find someone like this..but i really wish i could find someone like this to fill up my empty heart...i really dun mind suffer for her and sacrifice for her...as long as she is happy and fine i will be happy too...but somehow i am scare to move...failure make me frozen my heart and make me more timid to step out again...for the past 25 yrs i have been alone..so i do not know how to step out and what to do...so i wont blame others for not giving me the chance to prove my love to them...cause maybe what i did is all wrong....but i will learn to be a better one and move on to achieve greatly...i really hope i have enough faith to do it...lastly i hope that i really can find my path to move on and lead a happy life, Baby alicia grow up well and healthy and my family ,brothers heathly and happy...i really enjoy the dao huey night alot and i like it alot....but i know goods things dun last for me...
在世界的一端有千千万万的人,为了没的吃饱喝足而感到害怕,而慢慢的饿死....但在世界的另一端却有千千万万的人,因为吃太多而害怕肥胖而导致会带来的疾病...这个世界真是奇怪,真是有缺公平...明明大家都是人但经历经理的遭遇却又那么的不一样...现实真的是很残酷,只要在不对的时间,到不对的地方,遇上不对的人,什么事情都有可能发生,不管好坏...真希望能够拥有开心和幸福一辈子...

Alicia Sleeping...

I took this photo..So CUTE...

Awake and stunt..haha..

and it's the end....
到此为止...