finally i free to blog...haha...actually i was not so busy either just that everyday went home after school i don't feel like using com anymore...haha...everyday is still the same routine...go school then go home...nothing special at all..recently i heard i good news from 1 of my bro...although it shocked me but i am happy for him...haha...seem that he will be stress for the following months but hope he can be happy always and all the best for him...haha...last 2 week went to The Boiler room with campmate...enjoyed both clubbing outing maybe due to i long time never club...haha...but what make my days worst is now i am waiting to be activiate by SAF...haha...having mobilisation now...so sian loh...like waiting to die like tat...if activiated i need to go back camp duno do what shit...hope it wont activiate ar..please pray for me...ahahaha...i very look forward for aug cos 15 aug my FYP will end...haha...finally it ended cause it really boring and troublesome...haha...then 31 aug i going for a 10Km marathon by Nike....haha..first time in my life i ownself wan to run for marathon...haha..so it should be exicted..haha..after aug will be my bro big day...haha...hope everything will go smooth that day....haha...and enjoy the day alot...hahahaha....so happy for him...although i will lack of 1 bro to go out anymore...haha...

seeing him live happy should be the best thing he give back us brothers...hahaha....feeling moody this few days as i heard and find out alot of things which i dun wan to know and find out...but in the end i do find out...but wat to do...i really need to be mature and know what to do this time...maybe i too soft hearted...everytime i give in but this time i must not...i cannot like this anymore...i knew it from the start and brothers all saying me...maybe now is the time...Really Hope Everything will be like the old days...the Happy Me...The Happy Days....

我最讨厌骗人但更讨厌人骗我, 尤其是身边的人...因为一句小小的谎言就可以造成很大的伤害...也许说的人很轻松但听的人发现真相时, 却是多么痛心多么失望...所以我尽量很少骗人, 但我也不否认我也曾经骗过人因为毕竟没有人是完美的...但只要我可以我一定不会骗人, 尤其是身边的人...因为我知道这会带给他/她无比的痛心, 因为我毁灭了他/她对我的信任....其实人与人之间最基本的但却长长被遗忘的就是个"诚"...当人说出谎言时, 人都万万没想到一句言语上的伤害竟会是多么大, 尤其是对身边的人那种伤害会更大...谎言会使人彻底的失望因为当你全心全意去相信人时, 他/她却在你的心里狠狠的刺上一刀...那种痛是完全没有办法用言语来形容的, 不曾体会你永远也不知道那痛的辛苦...其实我想人都应该经历过这种痛, 只是每个人的痛都不一样...但被身边的人欺骗的那种痛是更痛的,因为里面包含了爱与关怀也一起被背叛了....被骗明明会那么痛,每个人都知道...那么为何还要骗人呢.....But i never expected that you would lie to me...maybe i was too naive too stupid...you took my care and concern for granted...

我已经分不清楚什么是开心什么是伤心...