nothing to do so come to blog..got alot to say but just duno how to say out...nothing much happen this few days...last fri met frens went for drinks and chat alot..then sat went dinner with family for mother's day dinner..the cafe we go sucks..service not good..small portion and very expensive..haha...think wont go back that cafe anymore...haha...then evening went to meet Poly schoolmate and went to DBL O...reach there early so i went to Beds to find wenliang and discuss about something important..luckily nothing happen and everything ws solve...haha..after went DBL O...quite crowded that day..drank alot too as my campmate came and we order alot of drinks...played and enjoyed the night...sunday wake up and rot until night...so tired...haha..play until tired...and not feeling right too..quite moody..so rather stay at home then going out...days still pass on the same..boring..luckily attachment is finishing soon..so boring loh....hope FYP will be better as in sch there is much more to do and fren to accompany...haha...

think throught this few days le..finally able to understand and decided to accept it...although this is not what i really wanted and wish for...but sometime i know there is no choice for me to choose...after so long i know this time i am not sensetive...i really felt it this way...just that you duno and not i never tell you before...is you always joke or not serious with it...you never spare a thought of my feeling before...you just do what you wan and ignore my feeling...you dont know sometime you hurt me..maybe you never realise or maybe is my fault i never tell you...i dont know...but to other it is not like this...dont say i wan to compare or i compare...i never wan to compare...but it is you who compare without yourself realising...you weight me and others in your heart but you dont know...even thought i told you before...you say it is me sensetive..but it is not..this is how i feel...if you never how will i felt this way right...you just never wrong before..alway i let you win let you whine...then all become my fault even is you did wrong and deny it...i just treat you too good sometime you just take me for granted..maybe you dont realise...but i am sure it is...you are always my priority but i am always an option to you...maybe is you know that i will never walk away thats why you treat me like this...not appreciated...for granted...i dont know...many tell me is a mistake but i just dont care..i just do what i think is right...but now i dont what had done..whether it is right or not..confused..scared...disappointed..and you never do what you had said to me...you just forget it or maybe you just want to quickly bring it over..i duno..i really duno...maybe i'm not important in your heart and i stand no where...but please spare a thought for my feeling...in the end i still a human too...i do have feeling....so disappointed...maybe you think you did alot for me maybe a sms a short call you think is alot...i duno why...but to me it is nothing compare to what i had done i had scarifice...you just dont know cos i never told you before...not that i want or need a repay..but not like taken me for granted ma...this is not what i really want to see and wish for...but i am tired of thinking it already..cos you never care...you think you do but the fact is that you never...at least this is how i feel...you know how much cherish it but it seem that it is not enough for only me to cherish it and care about it...a clap need 2 hands...hai.....you never know how much you have hurt me...so disappointed in you...
人的生命就好象烟花,还没点燃时是那么的平平无奇,但当被点燃时,火花亮起的那瞬间是那么的美丽,但好景不长在,随随着它慢慢的燃烧,美丽的东西也有终结的一天...当花火烧完后,剩下的也只有又黑又臭的一根棒子....

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