Thursday, April 10, 2008
Actually dont intend to blog...but suddenly feel like typing out things...suddenly dont feel so good...so i blog...yst went to 101 with weixiong songhua monyet zhixiong skinny to find meishan and we had supper and drinks...we total 5 person drank 16 bottle of beer..haha...this crazy weixiong keep dun wan to go and wan to drink...so had to accompany him...after tat went home..couldnt slp again...hai..until 3++ then finally slept..then morning went to work...this few days life really sucks...every night also cannot sleep..duno why also...no matter how tired also cannot sleep...think going to die very soon if continue like tat...hai...sometime i really duno why...duno why the more i continue it the more i found out..the more sad i am...i admit everything is a mistake...i myself didnt knew it too...but until when i realise i know everything is too late le...i sure die hard this time...but i just cant control it and continue it...hai...maybe is i too care about it le..maybe actually it is nothing big deal abt it...it is all the wihle me who care much...hai...i felt very very tired le...i duno why...maybe i am too greedy sometime...maybe i like to compare...maybe i am petty...maybe i think too much...i really duno....there are just too much maybe until i dont even know what the fuck i am thinking...i just dont feel right...no matter how much i did is always cant compare to wat others did once...not appreciated...always taken for granted...or maybe i am startign to become a burden to you...i duno...but you dont know how much you have hurt me once and once...you never stand in my shoe before...never spare a though for my feeling...maybe i not the one you need or trust...i duno why...but please at least think of my feeling...i'm a human too...i do have feeling...i do feel pain...i do get hurt...i know everything start from me..my nistake..but this is not what i really want to...hai...maybe i just not mature enough to see everything and to understand it...hai...i really duno wat to do...really just hope everything can be fine again...you never care before how i feel...maybe to you i just not important enough...
and it's the end....
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