Monday, March 24, 2008
just went for a run with monyet and did alot of statics exercise...haha..hope can run 3 time every week...like tat then can slim down more..haha..and can run away all my trouble and problem...then at night will be tired until cannot think then fell asleep...haha...sleepless night really can kills...haha..hais...last fri went out with campmate to discuss something then watch a movie then went to Beds to drink...meet songhua monyet meishan...never drink much as was not totally recover yet and something else which bothering me...then going home time found out something which make me very angry...and make me feel likehai..felt disappotined too...but it is over le and i promise not to say again le...so let it be...then sat wait up then noon time went to gugu house for family gathering...ate play slack until night then went home...stay at home whole night...sunday rot until late afternoon then meet monyet and went to find meishan for dinner...then head back home as monday need to work and there is no one else coming out...duno why this few days doesnt seem very smooth..alot of thing just came down to me...hais...i duno..i really dunno...i admit i over worry and to over sometime...but i really mean well and really come from my heart...even you dont appreciate or took me for granted i also dun care...i just want you to be good...happy...safe...but i really didnt know it will be a stress to you...and stress u so much...maybe i am wrong...maybe i am really too over...i duno...maybe is because when i was young i wish for someone like that to worry and care for me...someone who can protect me....but there isnt...when young i only felt brothers are the best to me...and i only have my brothers...thats why i walk the wrong path...but now brothers all are back to the right path and i glad they lead me back...and i found family is there for me...but is quite late le...although i try to change but somehow i cant totally walk on the right path...but it is fine to me...i admit everything...i ended up wat i am now but i never regret it...although did wrong things...so that why now i can i wish for the best and try to be the one to lead people to the right path...i care for people...i worry for you...but maybe i am too over sometime ba...i got no limit...maybe i got wrong ba...my brother also told me so but i still stubborn wan to continue...hais....but now i know everything le...i understand everything le...i need to control how i give and take...learn to control it well...and not become a stress to people again...hais...think i need to be more mature le...hais...but dont worry...i will always still be there for you no matter...i promise...Really Hope Everything Can Went Smoothly Without A Hitch...hais...so disappotined...no matter how much i do it is always the same...hais..whatdo i do to deserve this..hais...
Kill Me If You Can't Save Me...
and it's the end....
到此为止...