come to blog as was sick and on Mc for these 2 days and because of cant really sleep in the night...now is morining 7.22am..haha..sick but cannot sleep..so funny right...haha..and no need to report to work also....a boring week i had..never did much thing this few days...last sat went to Beds to find wenliang awhile then after tat went Mos to celebrate Fat cat birthday...drink quite alot but was still fine...disturb alot of ppl and play alot with them...went home bath and cant sleep..sunday evening time meet monyet for dinner then saw kewei and shaowei...chat awhile then we went play bowling and fuyuan came alot later...haha..did alot of stupid thing as duno how many yrs never play bowling le...haha...went home and cant sleep again...sian..duno why keep cant fall to sleep...being like this quite a long time le...really very tired also cant slp...maybe due to this tat why i got sick...got very heavy flu and headach...the headach is the worst...pain until my whole left eye also pain...pain until cannot open sometime and pain until wanted to vomit...nv experience this before...damn jialat and uncomfortable...hai....and when sick tend to have a weaker mindset...tend to think alot and anyhow think cos maybe got alot of free time ba...somemore i cannot sleep...got more time...hai....thinking that sick i might able to rest more and well but i was wrong....worst...more cannot sleep....hai...really is sick and tired ar...sometime just wan to find someone to acc and rely on....alone in the bed really is boring...think thru alot of things...find out that maybe i wasnt mature enough...all the while i was too childish le..and it is time for me to change le...have to be more mature le...although now mind is weak...but after i recover i will have my strong mind back and everything will be fine le...and i think alot this few days...so maybe can improve myself...getting sick will also make ppl feel negative...maybe sometime is i pin too much hope on something le...and everytime i fell hard...maybe i am too greedy i duno...i just trying to be positive...but everytime it turn out the other ways...even when i am sick....maybe sometime i really pin too much hope on thing and ppl sometime.....hai...not i wish to think negatively....but i really duno ar...hai...maybe i do have a weak mind now...and i really hate getting sick...Hope to recover soon and NEVER get sick again....finding someone to rely on sometime is really so hard...so disappointed...

每个人的心里都有一个衡量器和衡量的标准...这个衡量器每一个人的都不一样, 衡量的标准也不一样...人们都拿来衡量很多东西, 比如大小, 东西的好坏, 事情严重性, 某人的价值, 现有的立场, 对某人的感情, 某人的重要性, 等等等....每一个人自己都有自己的一个标准而且也都不一样, 所以要找到一个一样的可以说是没有可能...但几乎接近的我想还是有的吧...只是你有没有找到吧了....人的一身大多数的都是在寻找一个这样的人...这人也多办也是你的知己, 好兄弟, 或半伴侣...虽然寻找的过程很艰辛很不如意, 但人往往都不会放弃...这就是人衡量后所做出的决定, 一个很坚定的决定...也是人可以最付出的决定....即使自己在对方的心里没有价值,或没被重视....但人还是会不放弃的去坚持这份信念, 去努力的维持或促进对这人的感情.....这就是人的伟大.....也不是没一个人都做的到的......no that i wanted for a repay or what...i am will to scarifice...but atleast a show of respect or appreciation...hai...life is tough...it is hard to be good...

What am i thinking.....