Saturday, July 14, 2007
i think 2007 is a tough year for me...at least until now i find it very tough for me to pull it through...i still remember i went to temple to pray i saw the forcast of my year this year...it said it is a good year for me...got romance got lucky money got to know new nice ppl got business to do...a very nice year should be...but till now i dont agree it and i dont find it true....i didnt got romance but instead woman problems...i didnt got extra money but only spend alot....i didnt get to know new nice people but instead i lose my most closer one....about business i dun even have time for it....so what is good about this year...since the starting of the year unlucky and unhappy stuff came one by one....although there are good things happen also but the happiness doesnt support me to pull through the hardships....although alot of it i can understand but it doesnt mean that i am able to accept it...i know life will have hardship then one can grow up...but i think this time it hit me really hard...i am now collaspe and dead...so disappointed in myself and life...maybe what i had done all the while is all wrong..maybe i never right before just that i only think i am right...until wat i feel is that i seem like a failure....i agree my life is better than alot alot of people around the world....but better life really doesnt mean happy life...now i dun even dare to hope for anything...not even a happy day...just dont a sad day is fine for me....i lose too much thing this few months i dont even know how long i still can endure or take it...everyone say time will heal...but i dont even feel the healing and if time really can heal then why are there still so many conflict exist....hai...maybe i am wrong...totally wrong...i really hope that thing can be the same like last time...i dun care for anything just the happy life i used to have...is it too much...?? maybe i am greedy but who dont....hai....feeling hopeless is painful....really painful...........
心碎心痛....
and it's the end....
到此为止...