Monday, December 11, 2006
what a fuck up week i had...unlucky thing happens...feeling so fuck up so sad...haiz...still regret of the thing i had done...so fuck up...so much happen just in a week...friends in trouble...this and that..and there is nothing i can really do about it...somemore common test start today...lucky the most tough paper Math is finish...if not i dont know how to take the paper with this fuck up feeling...2 more paper to go hope can really take it smoothly...then holiday and i bet the holiday wont be as happy it will be...actually plan something on holiday but think have to cancel it due to some problem....sometime i really wonder i went back to study is a right choice or not...i keep hypnotise myself that it is a right choice but people around me and the reality keep proving me wrong...haiz...this is a very important step in my life and i dont wish to make a mistake....really hope that it is not a wrong choice...if not i think i will breakdown and collaspe very soon....feeling so sad now....nothing seem to be right since my birthday till now...did a wrong thing and so many things happen...maybe 22 year old is not my year...haiz...what i really want is a simple life...yet simple is so hard to achieve...seem so near but yet very very far....really dont know what to do and to dream of anymore...dont even dare to dream of having someone to hold me when i collaspe...just hope a nice and smooth day..really nothing much...having the feeling stucking inside really kills...and i know reaching the state of breaking down isn't far....really Hope For A Better Day....and it's the end....
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