Wednesday, December 27, 2006
really really disappointing in my parent...not just that they never keep their promises...they like never even care about how i feel...if they really think so little and useless of me why not kill me in the first place when i was born....sometime really dont know what they thinking and what they really want...the more i give in the more they go overboard...i really cannot stand it liao la...they really hurt me this time and really is alot...but i dont think they knew it....never never felt so disappointed in them before....haiz...i already try very hard to be good le...everything follow what they say...go study and go work...but they just not happy about it...even i have good grade they also feel not enough...they want money so i work...i work 5 days 60 hours le...standing and rushing everyday and even work until injury my back and hand...and all i want was to take 2 off day to rest and recover my back but in their eyes i am lazy dont want to work and cannot stand hardship...and they actually tell others that i am lousy and useless cause cant even stand working...and they think that i did not heard it....just because i keep quiet doesnt mean i not hurt....just because i never earn enough money home..and when study i no income this mean i am uselss...but the fact is that it is them who want me to study not me ok...i wanted to work cause i know study surely there will be alot of problem one...but they all promise that they will help me...but in the end they break all the promise they make...and even still wanted me to do more what i have expected....haiz...and they can just say this kind of thing...never even spare a thought for me...never even care how i feel....i also human right..also got feeling one ma...not just because i am their son i wont argue or blame them they can like that say ma....this really hurt alot...never praise or reward nevermind liao i use to it liao...but aleast dont step on it ma....dont they know how painful it is....someone you most care and concern step on you...sometime i really dont know the meaning of still living in the world is for what...really really disappointed in them liao...dont know what to ask for more....dont even dare to hope for a better day.........and it's the end....
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