Sunday, October 29, 2006
A tiring week...have been drinking for 3 days..mon, wed and fri...all 3 days also drink like hell...really crazy liao...really have to stop cos body really showing rejection...must try very hard to cut down if not surely wont live long...then yesterday went to seletar Dam for BBQ session with frez...it was quite fun and i enjoy it alot although i smell suck in the end...but chatting eating and joking is fun....sch was boring everyday not sure why i dont have the mood to sch anymore...dont know how to manage this semster result...hope can faster find back the mood...arbo sure fail one...and manage to settle the thing in my heart..and now felt lighter...not so moody anymore....only left a stupid best friend thing havent settle and he dont wish me to step in...cos he know once i do it he sure will regret and he know my style of doing thing but he just dont listen...think of it also dulan...know cannot still want to do...give him liao he dun wan...gone liao then sad...dont know what the fuck he is thinking...everytime just want to run away from problem and then act strong..and always think i dont know...haiz...den my ben ben princess also happen alot ar...haha...called me actually and do some stupid thing...haha...i know la it is our small secret...haha...another cousin also got problem i know but she just dont tell me...but i trust her to settle it herself cos she is more strong than anyone i knew...haha...suddenly alot of frez faces problem and alot i just cant do anything but see them sad see them losing hope....haiz...thing always dont happen the way you hope for...sometime you knew it but you just cant accept it...it apply to me too...really hope everything can end soon then happy days can come into my life again...really miss my teens day...where everyday is a hope...and the hack care feeling make my day happy....no matter is drinking, fighting clubbing, whatever la..it is just fun....haiz...never never will have that kind of day anymore...really Hope For A Better Day....and it's the end....
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