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Saturday, October 14, 2006

it is a sat and i am at home...alone staring at the computer dont know what to do...felt so hopeless and sad...actually meeting frez liao and changed and just waiting for a call den went out...but then suddenly something happen and halt the timing in the end i wait until i abit dulan liao so decide to stay at home to rot..cos i know even i went out now i also wont feel happy and enjoy it...dont know why just dont feel right...something is in my heart and it felt so heavy and it keep pressing down on me...haiz...maybe this time i really done wrong...i really see too much into it...i fell too deeper into it...haiz....maybe i just need some time so get over it...maybe things that i think that is important dont even mean anything to people...maybe all the long i was wrong...maybe...maybe....so much maybe and none of it is right...what have i really done...where is my better day...my better life.........

我猜不透人的心里究竟要的是什么,想的究竟是什么...我想我这辈子都应该猜不透吧...人心难测...希望不要去想就会好一点吧...我想说但我又害怕,我怕说了也没有用...现在我做的一切,都只是掩饰着心痛和我的难过...我真的很想学会自我催眠,这样一来痛觉会少一些...那么我就不会睡不着而感到心烦,感到幸苦....心有点倦了,长夜苦涩难熬...时间几乎停止了,停止了我的思考能力使到我不管做什么都不对...好累...

and it's the end....
到此为止...



About Me.
Name : Hu Jinsheng 胡锦盛
Age : 26
Gender : Male
Currently : Interior Designer
Status : Single
Ns Status : ORD


Friends.
Cheryl
Debbie
Gladys
Hazel
Jason
Lynsey
Lifen
Piano
Rain
Rick
Reena
Sisi
Sheenin
Serene
Victoria
Wynny
Weiling
Weixiong
Weiloon
Xiaoshi
Xueping
Yihong
Yunshan
Zhixiong

Music



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